I'm back in Connecticut after a six day homecation with my Mom. We had coffee on the back deck, walked the dog, swam in the lake, fed the deer, visited my Grandparents, played in the woods, shopped, went to open mic night and basically hung out and talked and relaxed. It was wonderful. A bit hard going home for the first time with Dad gone, but it was great to get to just be with my Mom and talk and cry and laugh and just be together. Mom's had too much time alone.
I feel a bit more like a human being too after a few days away from everything. I needed the time to wrap my head around my Grandfather's illness and take a breather from school. The time to learn how to balance everything that's going on. As I told Jim when I got home, I've been feeling more and more like someone whose been told to juggle and then tossed knives and burning brands. I keep getting cut and burned and as soon as I get any kind of rhythm where I feel like I can handle the load someone throws me something new.
I'm hoping this breather and renewed state of mind can help me keep going.
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