Today would have been my Dad's 57th birthday.
I didn't go home last year for his birthday because he was being his typical stubborn cranky self around his birthday and he'd planned a colonoscopy for the day after. Sharing the joys of bowel prep with the family for his birthday. He said don't bother. And I was still nursing some resentment over the fact that they hadn't come to visit me for my birthday.
I was so stupid.
Miss you Dad.
I made it through the whole day without a meltdown. I studied like I needed to, stuck to my diet (I've lost 4 pounds since friday!) and kept moving. One day at a time.
Not stupid, just human. You were frustrated with him, which is one way that people interact. Don't be down on yourself about it...do you have memories of the last birthday you did spend with him that you can cherish?
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the weight loss and the general success at handling life! Love you.