Fafsa is filed. Don't despair of the impending student loans. Learn to accept help and call your grandmother and accept the offer she made to help pay for school. It's help she wants to give and help you need. Don't wallow in self-imposed misery.

Pour filtered water into the turtle tank, dilute the chlorinated stuff. It's working.

Grateful. Be grateful. I have health insurance. It's life that you have to pay for it. At least I HAVE it.

Jim's mom is going to be alright. They've caught the cancer in an early stage. They'll remove the tainted lady parts and she'll recover. I wont say, "It could be worse" because I know for her, right now, this is the worse thing she's ever dealt with. I'm here though, strong for her, strong for Jim, strong like my father made me.

Cars are cars. They cost money. They break down. His has almost 200k miles on it, we should have been expecting a breakdown. We have no car payments right now, we'll manage somehow to get it repaired.

I miss my Dad. I worry about my Mom. I love my musclebound, Navy brother. I've lived a truly blessed life. My dad loved me. Somewhere in the universe he still does. I feel him still loving me, still guiding me, still telling me to be strong and to go on. He was an ornery, stubborn, son of a bitch half the time, but he always did us proud. He took care of us, he did what he had to do to make sure his family was o.k. and now we're going to make him proud and prove to him that we can take care of ourselves.

It's beautiful out today. I love you Dad.