Turn it around.

It's Monday, the start of a new week and a new frame of mind.

Last week... was rough, it was emotional and draining and I just wanted to give up. I didn't want to keep going to classes or dealing with the heat or coping at work or managing my depression. I wanted to curl up in bed and sleep sleep sleep.

I woke up this morning determined to start fresh, have a new attitude and live up to the strength my Dad always showed me. I gave my teacher the benefit of the doubt in lecture. I still don't like his style but I'm trying to learn.... around that obstacle. It was a good test today because the air conditioning in the building was not working (2nd floor class and its 90+ outside) and it was unbearably hot and stuffy. To say that the class was irritable would be an understatement. We were twenty down right petulant, sweaty, disgruntled individuals, with raging hostility at being kept in those conditions. But we survived the lecture and our prof. agreed to give us our lab quiz and the let us out of lab early.

I'm studying for my class though, and I actually want to go to work today. I have been trying to help out more around the house and tell Jim (and my family) that I love them more often. I'm trying. I wont give up. I wish I could see my friends, but it's just not in the cards right now... I can't afford and don't have the time to travel to see people. And the same problem goes with asking my friends to visit me, money and time. Adult life is a real drag sometimes. Heh.

My brother is being deployed to Iraq in the middle of September for six months. This means he'll miss all the holidays and be away from his family for his birthday (and mom's and mine.) It's a serious disappointment to not have him home with us but mostly the whole deployment is a cause of worry. We'd hoped being in the Navy would mean he never got shipped to the Middle East, but we aren't that lucky I guess.

Sigh.

Back to work!